Just Life...

FRUSTRATIONS
*At the moment, Skittle is determined to knock over my cup of water. I move it from the window sill to the desk and he just follows it. He wants me to stop playing on the computer and play with him.

*I am so unbelievably broke. My checking account is currently negative. Beth helped me out, but how am I going to recover. After I pay back the bank, help Beth and pay her back, and pay rent...that's it. Who's gonna pay the cell phone, phone, cable, electric, internet, car, insurance...and the list goes on....

*I have had visitors, been visiting, and taking trainings and meetings so much since June that I cannot check back into my job. I care and it's coming back in spurts, but it is slow.

HAPPY STUFF
*I spent the weekend with Beth and Leslie and I had a great time. I really miss Leslie. I know she loves her family and I wish we were closer so I could watch her children grow up. I also wish I was better about calling and emailing and so on. We've grown apart yet seeing each other this weekend was like we had never been apart. Except that she talks about her husband and children and I talk about my kitties and my job.

*Beth is really starting to look happy again. I don't know if it's puppy love or craving attention or real love or just attraction, but she's smiling and loving her own life. Of course, I'm going to continue worrying about her, she's my lil sis after all, but she's a big girl and she can make her own decisions. Now if only Mom would grow up too....

ON THE LOVE FRONT
*I don't know. I know what I want. I know what I don't want. I don't think I'm quite loving myself as fully as I could yet. I have learned to pat myself on the back and be open about how I feel, but my physical appearance isn't what I want it to be.

*I joined eharmony for one month....and that's all I'll do. My first match (and he contacted me first) made my jaw drop. He's a grad student who wants to be a psychologist, loves children and wants to adopt older children (have I blogged about the little girl I want to adopt?), and likes animals. He's a really good match and we started the exchanges...it's a process....but he has not responded in several days and we are not to open communication yet. Do you think I should request "fast track"? Is that too forward?

MISCELLANEOUS
*I guess I have a lot on my mind. I'll save some of it for later.

I don't usually do these, but what the hay..

You Are A Martini

You are the kind of drinker who appreciates a nice hard drink.And for you, only quality alcohol. You don't waste your time on the cheap stuff.Obviously, you're usually found with a martini in your hand. But sometimes you mix it up with a gin and tonic.And you'd never, ever consider one of those flavored martinis. They're hardly a drink!

What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

Is this for me?

I had this dicussion with someone today (thru email, of course) about the future of a young boy on my caseload. We have slightly different views on what should happen, but she began attacking my approach and....well...it just got confusing. How do I handle this? Why is it that someone so professional with so much more education than me resorts to personal attacks? I don't know if I have enough "snap" for this line of work. I guess it could be that we were communicating through email and I could have misinterpreted it, but I don't think so.

How do I know if I am picking the right career?

New Blogger

Hi everyone,
I'm new to this blogging thing and am not sure if I'm going to like it. It would be nice to have a way to get things out and off my chest, but I'm not sure if I want everyone to read it afterwards.

Anyway....

About me, I'm a social worker in the field of child abuse. I have been working with foster children for two years and I absolutely love it! These kids have been through so much and they are really great to hang out with. Oops, supposed to be about me...I am starting grad school in the Fall and I'm looking forward to that. I am working on my Master's degree in Social Work and someday hope to have my own practice. I want to offer therapy for children and adolescents, possibly contracted with Child Protective Services to offer help to abused and neglected children.

I'm 29, single, and have no children. I've never been married, never even been close, although I would like to get married and have children some day. I actually know of a six year old little girl that I would like to adopt, but it's not possible right now due to my current employment. I have two kitties, Skittle and Callie, who are the loves of my life right now. I never knew I could love animals as much as I love them. They are one year old and completely spoiled rotten because I love them too much.

Well, I hope this blogging thing works and I keep up with it. Wish me luck!!